It is Tuesday July 20, 2010 and I have realized for the first time that my life will never be the same. The day started and I planned to ignore my bridal duties (ya right!) and for once enjoy a day off ( I have NOT had the luxury of one since wedding planning has begun). I wasn't going to worry about music, flowers, or what the hell I am going to serve at the bar. The plan was to relax by the pool with my bridesmaids and enjoy the finer things in life.... Like a book, magazine, gossip, or just enjoying the UV Rays. I called my fiance to have him check the mailbox and bring the mail to me. I have to admit that everytime I see an ivory pearlescent envelope in my mailbox I get excited. Now, the next comment might sound harsh but its the truth. Everytime I open an envelope I ask myself "Will this be a yes or a no?" How sad is it when you wish for a no. Those of you reading this... I WANT YOU THERE!!! Unfortunately, my mother has racked up my guest list way past the point of saving and I cant help but hope for a couple of no's. Dont get me wrong I want my friends and family (along with Trevor's) there more than anything but it is honestly stressful planning a party for 300. I am rambling now so back to my day off...
I asked my fiance to bring me my mail and sure enough he joins me and the girls at the pool. This turns into his best friend with the girls at the pool. As much as I love his company, and looking at jaw dropping body (which reminds me that I should really tone up my arms for the wedding) I finally realized that my life will never be the same. In 6 weeks I will be the married, homebody, crazy cat lady. I have never understood why people say things change when you get married, but as September 4th quickly approaches i am realizing now how things do. I'm honestly excited to spend the rest of my life with the Mr., but at the same time it is weird to realize that my life as a single woman will soon be gone. I will soon have wifely dutues and somebody else that becomes apart of my everyday life, besides Izzy and Kona. I will soon wear an apron adorning "Domestic Diva", cook dinner, do the laundry, and greet my husband at the door with an adorned lipstick smile. This all makes since considering they say that brides wear white so they blend in with the kitchen! Who am I kidding though, thats not me! Trevor loves to cook, clean the house, and when I do get home at 11 all I want to do is lay on the couch and watch Real Housewives of whatever city. I am way past the point of a smile at this point, and lipstick is out of the question! Once again RAMBLING
SOOOO, like I said, today is the day that I realized my life will never be the same. I must accept the fact that from this point on I will always be a part of a whole and whatever that entails. I am excited for every part that my future holds being the new Mrs. davis, but it is hard to let the Miss Parichan go. And NO, I will NOT be Parichan-Davis (just in case you are reading mom)! I know that nobody is telling me that I have to change, but I cant ignore the fact that change is coming. In 6 weeks I will be a Mrs. and with that I will have to explain every shopping spree and late night to somebody else. I guess I need to hold on to the fact that I am marrying the man of my dreams and I am fortunate to have the support of my family and friends. All in all I am excited for what the future holds but I can't help but be scared of loosing my past. I don't want to be the forgotten friend or the person who always has a plus one, even when its a girls night out! So here I go..... I have 45 days until I become a Mrs. My life is the most chaotic and stressful it has ever been and half the time I can barely remember how to walk at times. I have so much to do and it feels like no time to do it in. I don't write for pity, because I honestly never pity myself. I am marrying the man of my dreams and I am truly fortunate for that. Hopefully when we are old and wrinkly, the Mr. and I can read these posts and laugh at how much of a lunatic I am! This is honestly the greatest and yet most stressful time in my life. everyday I wake up greatful for what I have but then I wonder how in the world I will get it all done.
